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Chapter
VIII
THE CROSS AND SELF
THE CHURCH WORLD is full
of Christian professors and ministers, Sunday school teachers and workers,
evangelists and missionaries, in whom the gifts of the Spirit are very
manifest, and who bring blessing to multitudes, but who, when known "close
up," are found to be full of self. They may have "forsaken all" for
Christ and imagine they would be ready, like the disciples of old, to die
for their Master; but deep down in their hidden, private lives there lurks
that dark sinister power of self.
Such persons may wonder,
all the while, why they do not have victory over their wounded pride, their
touchiness, their greediness, their lovelessness, their failure to experience
the promised "rivers of living water." Ah, the secret is not far away.
They secretly and habitually practice "shrine worship"--at the shrine of
self. There they bow daily and do obeisance. They are fundamental.
In the outward Cross they glory, but inwardly they worship another god--and
stretch out their hands to serve a pitied, petted, and pampered self-life.
The outward Cross, the payment of sin's penalty, the death of the Substitute,--this
"finished work of Christ," they know. But the amazing mystery and
undreamed-of-depths of that Cross, as it is to be applied to the inner
life,--"the mystery of the inward as well as the outward Cross,"--they
know not. But "until Christ works out in you an inner crucifixion
which will cut you off from self-infatuation and unite you to God in a
deep union of love, a thousand Heavens could not give you peace." (F.
J. Huegel in Cross of Christ.)
God harden me against myself,
The coward with pathetic
voice
Who craves for ease, and
rest, and joys:
Myself, arch-traitor to myself;
My hollowest friend, my
deadliest foe,
My clog whatever road I
go.
Yet One there is can curb
myself,
Can roll the strangling
load from me,
Break off the yoke and set
me free.
--Ch?iriina Rossetti.
From his original home and
center in God, where God was his light and life, the very breath of his
breath, the central Sun of his universe--from this secret place of the
Most High, man broke off and plunged out into the far country of self,
into the alienation and night of separation from God. God has been
cast down. Self has usurped the throne, a usurper who never abdicates.
Self is the new and false center upon which man has fixed. He loves
himself as nothing else under the sun. Even his best deeds are but
refined forms, the filthy rags, of his secret selfishness. He does
always with his right hand that the left hand of self-satisfaction may
know it. "Self," says William Law, "is the root, the branches, the
tree of all the evils of our fallen state."
When this nearly almighty
self unseated and dethroned El Shaddai, what could God do? He was
scarcely taken by surprise. Yet how undo this tragedy of all tragedies?
How unhinge and tear man loose from his foul and false self-infatuation?
God must never coerce or force man. His supreme glory is an unforced
worship. How dare He defeat His own divine purpose, His essential
glory! Herein is displayed the genius of God. The Cross is
indeed "the power of God, and the wisdom of God." Calvary is God's axe
laid at the root of the first family tree. Adam is cut off.
A new Adam ascends the throne.
The Lord Jesus came as the
new Head of a new race. He willingly came, came in the likeness of
sinful flesh. With cords of selfless love He fastened us to Himself
and took us with Himself down to the very depths of death, all in order
to clear away sin's penalty and persuade us to choose God instead of self.
He chose to die, to die for us, to die in our place, yea, to die our death--that
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